Late Night Honest Thoughts

Maybe it’s the breadth of random topics that work their way through my brain late at night, or maybe it’s the way I have found myself capable of turning the most seemingly disconnected things into a philosophical argument, but most of my blog posts get written in the early A.M. This one is no exception.

Somehow as I was laying here in bed I ended up with a Nickelback song stuck in my head, which does not happen very often, mostly because I only know one. But as the lyric, “Say it if it’s worth saving me,” rolls through my head, I can’t help but think about all the people begging someone to answer that question tonight.

I have been thinking about things like this far more often since my recent rescue from depression. My head was in the right place but my body was not cooperating, and it was dragging my emotions down with it. That’s when Jesus stepped in and basically used one evening of intense crying to set me free. To Christians out there struggling with depression, I have this to say: You are not worth less because you are depressed. God is not mad at you for having depression. Depression is not who you are, and when you don’t have the strength to fight it, He fights for you.

But non-Christians with depression, and some Christians who are drifting away, don’t relate to God like I do. Many people get mad at Him and even hate Him because they can’t see light. And when those people ask if they are worth saving, they don’t hear the answer I got months before that night of freedom.

The answer from God’s side never changes. You are worth saving. He will never stop reaching out to you with His love. Darkness likes to shroud our view and keep us from seeing anything of value in ourselves and the world around us, but darkness is not the final answer. There is a light that always overcomes the darkness, if you’ll let it in.

You are worth saving, and no matter what you have done or will ever do, you always will be.

(You can look up Nickelback's song "Savin' Me" if you want, but I wanted to link to something more positive.)